again and again.
i recalled.
how nice it is.
when life is that simple.
used to be that simple.
isn't it terrible?
when you grow, those things, just disappear themselves.
come to think of it.
how truthful have we been?
to who we called friends.
to who we called family.
to who we called lovers.
used to be that truthful.
just like when you are young.
when you dont like eating something, you will just refuse to eat it.
but today.
when you dont like eating something, you may think twice.
who is the person offering and should you just accept for courtesy.
yup yup.
bad example?
maybe.
no matter how innocent one can be,
there are still secrets.
you may not want to admit.
but deep deep down inside.
there are.
but i dont wanna be like that.
i want to be truthful.
especially to those who i care.
especially to those, who have taken up one space in my heart, regardless what position.
truth, may be hurtful.
but only those who really care, will then tell you the truth.
and i have finally understood.
why it was the way it was.
and perhaps.
that's the way.
to make me grow.
i hate those uneven and tough journeys.
but looking back, i love them more than anything.
because of them, i have grown.
because of them, i start to understand, perhaps behind that really gloomy sky, there may really be sunshine awaiting.
bangkok trip is just so not enough to blog.
for those who thought i had a great time there, thanks ah.
but saddly, i didn't.
felt helpless.
as helpless like them.
it's like hands stretched out.
there, but not there.
came back from bangkok.
felt like the world changed.
quarantined at home?
wa.
i suddenly understood what it may feel like to be kept.
if it was secondary school days, i may set fireworks.
but thanks ah.
it's poly days.
and another round of thanks.
it's during project peak.
even as much i as i want to go school, i cant.
i know somehow my project mates will have this "X" feeling.
i know somehow they will feel that i'm not there.
i know somehow when i am quarantined, it may feel like i am just not there.
maybe you wun have these feelings.
but at least.
i have it.
i cant say anything much.
cos i am really not there.
but i am as helpless.
and never did i expect that a quarantine will come.
maybe i cant understand how you guys felt.
cos i wasn't there.
but i didn't felt good being at home alone.
and now.
it's gonna end.
school's gonna start next week.
then i start to understood what someone has told me before.
an unexpected surprise drop and disappointment.
when someone actually disagree with what you have done.
first time.
first time in my life.
i dont know how to react.
but what my brain told me is.
solve it.
while my mind is still trying to find an answer.
and i think.
i start to understand how you feel.
seriously.
i have been totally idealess.
i have been totally helpless.
but being helpless, just isn't the solution to the problem.
now what i have to do.
is to face it.
is to anticipate it.
is to confront it.
i suddenly thought of coming soon.
the choice you have made.
regardless good or bad,
will come back to haunt you.
and somehow i start to feel.
am i not longer someone that you can trust?
maybe.
that's the reason why.
i have closed hearts facing me.
suddenly, the world seemed different to me.
i think i can do this alone.
anyway.
there wun be anyone there.
and even if there is.
you cant help.
and so it's okay.
i think i will just walk this journey alone.
and that's why i am born on the 1.
it's just destined.
-have you ever wonder how much you worth in others' mind?
-have you ever wonder if your so-called best friends see you as their best as well?
-have you ever wonder if trust every existed between you and your friends?
-have you ever wonder if what is you see or hear is the not the truth?
-have you ever wonder if it's better to be alone?
-have you ever wonder if it's better to keep all the things to yourself?
-have you ever wonder what's the point of sharing or opening up?
-have you ever wonder what is trust?
-have you ever wonder what is friendship?
-have you ever wonder what is worth up till today?
-have you ever wonder why do you have to be so tired?
-have you ever been betrayed?
-have you ever been back-stabbed?
-have you ever been forgotten?
-have you ever been unheard, or perhaps, never heard?
-have you ever been given up?
-have you ever been remembered by your so-called friends or clique?
-have you ever been worth a place in your friends' heart or clique's?
-have you ever been dreaming about the past?
-have you ever been wishing that you hope to go back to the older days?
-have you ever been told that nothing was wrong but you knew there was?
-have you ever been placed in a position that tells you, thanks ah, you're not my best friend?
well.
if you can answer any up there.
i can tell you, i did also.
when you thought people that you were close with.
because in fact you aren't close with them in their minds.
you thought that they are your perhaps your best buddies.
but they actually said that someone else.
was the only person that was there for him/her to hold on.
or even to rely when times are tough.
when you are ready.
standing by the side.
to open your ears and arms for your friends.
but they never ever thought of confiding in you.
when the whole world was out there enjoying.
but the whole world, excluded you.
and in the end.
you end up.
alone.
alone.
alone.
when you are only left with your shadows.
to talk to, to confide, to laugh, to cry.
and when you end up thinking alone will be a better decision.
and your friends then tell you, dont emo, dont sad
but they just dont understand. they dont. they just dont.
and when you say that you wanna go back to the past.
the simpler past.
the happier past.
you then realise.
there isn't a simpler past.
there isn't a happier past.
that is the truth.
that is the reality.
hurtful words.
hurtful actions.
hurtful memories.
a hurt you.
AND.
tired.
do you think i am not?
do you think i am very free?
do you think that i have nothing to do except for waiting for you?
i can tell you i'm freaking stressed and tired too!
how much things i have on hand?
but do i have to show it out as well?
all my tiredness and unhappiness?
RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR FREAKING IRRITATING FACE?
so if the whole world is tired, shall we just let's just let it collapse?
what's not tiring in this world?
tired of living?
GO!
go to the middle of the road during the busy traffic periods.
go find a vehicle to knock you down.
and if you find one.
you better find a gigantic truck or bus.
and make sure you die.
GO!
go and jump off the building.
make sure you choose one that is tall enough.
and you will die from your jump.
GO!
GO LA.
WHY ARE YOU STILL HERE?
come on!
we are here.
not for no reason.
we are given such a chance to live.
what's so hard that can collapse you?
what's so tough that you cant overcome?
yes. it will be tough.
who ever told you that being born as a human was easy?
please la.
do you think you have a choice?
come on.
YOU ARE STILL HERE, IDIOT!
so what's the big deal now?
just take it in.
for goodness sake.
who knows you dont even have a chance anymore.
the next second.
you may drop dead.
I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain
I never needed strain
I never needed you for judgment
I never needed you to question what I spend
I never ask for help
I take care of myself
I never needed your corrections
On everything from how I act to what I say
I never needed words
I never needed hurts
And it’s a little late for conversations
There isn’t anything for you to say
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So look at me and listen to me
Because
I don’t want to stay another minute
I don’t want you to say a single word
Because
I don’t want to, do this any longer
I don’t want you, there's nothing left to say
I get the final say and I am never beaten, broken not defeated
I know next to you is perhaps not where I belong
omg. i just realised i haven been blogging for a week.
or should i say.
i did not realise that one week has just passed.
ermm.
last saturday was class gathering!
WOOHOOTS!
DAMN TOUCHED when i saw ARD 20 people IN THE GATHERING.
i felt quite guilty for not talking to more people and i'm sorry.
hope you guys did not mind :D
ANYWAY.
I WAS SUPER HAPPY TO SEE EVERYONE THERE!
then it was drag me to hell at the filmgarde at the iluma.
seriously.
LAME.
i thought it would really be scary and exciting but ya.
thanks for disappointing me.
cos i left the cinema theatre rolling my eyes.
it's just.
trying too hard?
some parts are funny but is that the effect u wanna achieve?
if that it, then... i have nothing to say.
then went to daddy's house with amanda and jenny.
lol.
talked about fantasizing stuff!
HAHAHAHA.
^-^
had a SUPER entertaining time when my daddy was sleeping :P
trying to put all kinds of toys inside.
HAHAHAH.
well.
it should be the last time for this year.
and i know it will be.
deep deep in my heart.
then i just couldn't recall what i have did on monday?
HAHA.
then tuesday was project in school.
wednesday was also project in school.
and ah huh!
today was spent totally with BIO stuff.
FREAKING SIAN.
i research until i wanna DIE.
oh ya!
tuesday went tam one arcade!
HAHA.
caught 3 pooh bears!
HEHEH.
then yesterday met up with jonnie they all.
HAHA.
SERIOUSLY?
you wanna know the truth?
YES.
i was PISSED off when i know i wasn't called out.
but i was only pissed off that moment!
HAHAH.
so ya :D
haiis.
starting to feel that sense of tiredness.
i know a lot others do feel it too.
BUT YA.
i need to survive through it.
so wish me luck people!
ANDD.
yes.
i know i'm SUPER STUBBORN.
haha.
i know you are infront of the screen knodding your head or os-ing "YES!"
i know it too.
but i cant help it.
i really cant.
the best solution.
that i can find.
is just to avoid the problem currently.
until i am able to settle down my thoughts and face the issue.
so before that, thanks for giving the best goodbye that you can.
i will keep the smiles for these time! : D
went out last.... friday i think!
oh mans!
it's terms break.
ok.
not really a break.
HAHA.
finally survived through the last week.
terrible.
with the two tests.
AND MICE CAN JUST DIE.
oh mans.
scared scared!
then went out to meet jenny and shanshan!
WOOHOOTS!
hahaha.
then it was dinner at Aston's, then it was dessert at the New York New York and then coffee at TCC.
HAHAHA.
ONE GROUP OF TAI TAI RITES.
lol.
anyway.
the guy is cute lor.
HAHA.
ok la.
at least not bad?
HAHAHAHA.
and something FUNNY HAPPENED.
HAHAHA.
shall not mention what.
but yes.
glass.
emmm.
HAHAHAHAH.
J.A.S.
ME!
then i cant remember what i have done on... OH YA. hahaha. watched terminator. HAHAHAH.
oh YES.
did i mention that i had a nightmare?
about myself being unable to finish assignments on time and i broke down?
HAHAH.
DO WORK UNTIL SIAO LIAO!
lol.
nightmare also do work.
HAHAHAH.
then er.
oh yes,
sunday was dinner for amanda's father-in-law's birthday.
HAHAHAH.
at pearl palace.
suntec city there.
me and jennifer!
me and jane!
ME ME ME!
anddd.
tues was interview at peter knipp!
i super like peter knipp.
i think it's very nice! : D
but today had STB.
STB was great as well.
HMMM.
and sandra was there!
then taxi-ed to meet ning zhi and headed for PS before meeting reuben and heading for SIS.
it was pussycat dolls today!
fabulous singing and atmosphere.
but i thought the station could be better?
HAHAHA.
but it was a great performance!
perhaps you know who you are.
perhaps you dont know.
perhaps you are still reading.
perhaps you dont read.
i dont know if you are still reading.
i dont know if you are still here.
but if you are still reading.
but if you are still here.
i hope you understand and know.
Something which is called troubles, that is something we can share.
Something which is called friendship, that is something we all have.
Something which is called memories, that is something we have had.
Something which is called sharing, that is something we should have.
i hope you can understand and know.
all these years are not spent for nothing.
all these time i still care as your friend
all these time i still have my ears opening.
and if you choose to close your heart.
and if you choose to face this alone.
and if you choose, to make these choices.
then.
there's nothing i can do.
i can be there forever.
i can be waiting.
but in the end, there's still nothing i can do.
and maybe.
i cant do anything.
but at least.
i can be here.
listening to you.
but still, it's your choice, my friend.
anyway!
tomoro i am making mixed korean riceee.
HAHAHA.
excited!
WOOHOO
i super like one of the para that the website had which jocelyn gave!
As we all know,
the heart is the center of the body,
but it beats on the left.
Maybe that’s the reason why the heart is not always right.
went to watch terminator salvation at GV on saturday and saw jon lim there as well.
er.
i think the movie was great.
didnt watch the previous series.
but at least i felt good watching that.
compared to angels and demon.
it was much better.
tighter storyline.
better graphics.
higher quality for sound effects.
yup yup.
i liked the effects especially.
and it's one movie that i wun mind watching again!
i liked the marcus inside.
a very nice role.
even thou he wasn't the main role.
and i think i will still fall in love with him even he's a robot.
: D
muscular also!
woohoots
i would like to listen to his heart beat as well!
HAHAHAH.
shiok shiok!
anyways.
weekend's over.
still super tired and keep having stomach ache.
OH MANS.
sian!!!
and did i mention.
what terminator's taught me.
what is scary.
is not the deadly robots that have no feelings.
but the humanity who knows how to make use of feelings to be deadly.
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i dont know.
i really dont know.
it's like we are perfect strangers.
i really dont know.
i thought we were on the same line.
but i just realised.
we aren't.
did you even think of me when you are having tough times.
did you even think of me when you needed someone to talk to.
did you even think of me when you want to go out with someone but don't know who to ask.
did you even think of me when you were thinking about your future.
did you.
at least once.
but.
all i need.
is perhaps just once.
maybe.
you didn't
you really didn't.
if you are doubting who are you now.
perhaps you should be the one.
oh mans.
this week is ending SOOON!
fast and furious.
CANT BELIEVE IT.
super packed.
F&B test on tuesday kept me busy like nobody's business on monday.
then tuesday was super tired and my laptop actually cant be used!
SO SADDENING LOR.
the crashing virus!
BUT YES!
it's back now!
have to start MICE soon.
tomoro test at 8am.
SIAO ONE RITE.
i think i will sleep during the break!
then tomoro will the end of the term.
HMMM.
super fast!
TIME JUST ZOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM.
aiyo.
6 weeks already.
AND I SERIOUSLY DONT HAVE ANY SENSE OF ACHIEVEMENT.
this is bad.
got to start on my lodging individual soon.
aim to finish it by the end of the first week of june.
the break is super packed as well la.
IRRITATING.
nvm.
yeahs!
peter knipp and stb next week.
wish me luck.
AND I WANT STB!
hmmmms.
AND AND AND.
FT ISLAND'S COMING!
OH MY TIAN!
HONG KI!
KIKI :)
hahahha.
shall go jie ji mans!
yup yup.
saturday night was another outing with jonnie.
but this time, sexy sandra is with us!
we went out on jonnie's family car.
AHAH.
to the cinema at marina for angels and demon.
then when we reached.
went around before we went in.
HAHA.
at first i have no idea what the story is about.
but yes.
at the end i understood.
i felt that it was a pretty good movie.
but it could be better.
cos i felt that it's a little loose?
and i think the storyline has the ability to keep our excitement level higher.
it can be tighter for the storyline.
and yes.
i was expecting more.
emmm.
didn't felt much about the angels and demons part.
perhaps due to the fact that i didn't read the book.
but yes.
once again.
movie has showed us something.
religion.
faith.
all these powerful beliefs and values.
has to power.
to make.
YOU.
AN ANGEL OR DEMON.
and then.
with the end of the movie.
jonnie sent us home.
HAHA.
once again.
we were lost.
lost in the city.
LOL.
but managed to find the way very quickly.
and missed jenny!
haha.
oh ya.
did i mention i met shanny lim.
HAHA.
1 million year never see her alr lor.
HAHA.
yup yup.
got to go!
have to study F&B now!
well.
the above song is super nice cans.
HAHA.
anyway.
finally.
this week has ended.
IT'S A SUPER BUSY WEEK CAN.
starting from monday, individual for URA has been non stop.
then tuesday, school before URA continues.
wednesday, long long journey to INTERVIEW.
and YES.
i think the interviewer is very nice and it was a good interview experience!
then URA was still haunting me.
AND THEN.
thursday.
went to school to do some ticketing stuff and practice, which half succeeded and half failed.
HAHAH.
me and jocelyn were super lazy to do and we went school and ended up only to practice one tutorial!
SIAN.
and then headed for subway.
GOT THIS GROUP OF TP PEOPLE ( I SUPPOSE THEY ARE JUNIORS) CUT QUEUE.
and they attempted to make it natural.
YA.
SO NATURAL.
then of course.
having dinner at around 10pm means i am SUPER HUNGRY.
and that's there's a saying, a hungry man is an angry man.
yes.
IT CAN BE APPLIED HERE.
and i super dont like the people who cut my queue cos i just dont like them.
TOO BAD LOR.
then i spoke not very softly for the people infront to hear.
thanks ah.
FOR CUTTING MY QUEUE.
then it was the final CHIONG-ING and EDITING for the URA ind.
mind block mans.
finished everything by 4am and slept 3 hours??
before waking up to go school to hand in.
AND YES.
super tired me is still here typing my blog entry.
anyway.
just now.
around 11?
called jon after seeing his missed call.
AND THEN IT WAS A SUPER IMPROMPTU SUPER OUTING!
hahah.
together with gerald, waihong and amanda!
on jonnie's car!
went to eat prata as usual and then had a quick drive to changi village.
jonnie was like eee-ing the BP there.
haha.
it's a usual and normal sight for me.
PLEASE LOR.
i visit BKK almost every year leh.
HAHA.
it's normal.
then it was a CHIONG along the changi beach area!
THEN JONNIE ACTUALLY ATTEMPTED TO CHASE AFTER A PLANE!
omg rites!
IMAGINE THE SPEED.
ahaha.
and gerald ah.
keep giving wrong information!
then we ended up at pasir ris park but then left again cos we have no night coupons.
then we ended up going round and round until we sent gerald home.
and WENT BACK TO PASIR RIS PARK AREA to send wai hong home.
and then on the ay to send amanda home.
jonnie keep missing the turns.
SO WE ENDED UP DUNNO GOING WHERE!
but it was a damn funny and excited process!
HAHA.
turn here here!
EH NO NO NO!
THERE THERE THERE!
HAHAHA.
TOTAL MADNESS CAN!
and finally!
i'm back here.
yes.
sleeping in one minute!
HAHAHA.
so goodnight people!
see you in my dreams!
if only my thoughts.
that are filled with you.
could be taken away.
could FLY AWAY.
i have been listening to wheesung's insomnia.
SINCE.
3pm?
it's close to memorising it.
except for the part that he sang/rap SUPER DUPER FAST.
went for interview today.
felt quite comfortable and good with the company's culture.
most importantly.
learning points.
yup.
that's what i am looking for and aiming for.
then went to see the doctor.
and i was told that i have A DAMAGED SCALP.
which was the REASON for the much falling of my hair.
there's super lots of stuff i cant take now.
worse still.
no cap.
no hat.
OH MANS.
for the sake of my hair.
ok, i will take it.
i used to think and wonder.
my importance to you.
i used to think and wonder.
it should be of some weight.
but like what's always said.
used to.
i then realise.
perphaps.
i'm nothing to you.
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1500, 1500, time has passed.
baby,baby, you're now a star.
why, why, are my tears flowing.
but, but, now i am just like a.
box, box, unwanted box.
yes,yes, it is empty & empty.
no, no, you'll never be able to help anymore.
yes, yes, it will be even harder to keep in contact.
fact, fact, the world is now a wall.
separate, separate, the hearts and souls.
move, move, you're now a step further away.
shine, shine, my star's no longer shining.
i know, i know, you'll never come back.
gone, gone, the lovely stare is gone.
tomorrow, tomorrow, before tomorrow.
after which, after which, no more no more.
no more but but but but
i'm getting sick sick sick sick
just get lost lost lost lost
love no no no no
supposed to be about love love love love.
but it turned out to be fear fear fear fear.
and ended up being a trap trap trap trap.
little by little.
smaller and smaller.
smile no more, no more.
tears flow freely, flow freely.
baby, you're a fading star.
it feels like insomnia.
bye.
it's really time to fly away.
HARLEM GLOBETROTTERS.
yes!
my first event!
woohoo!
didn't regret going!
SUPER FUNNY EVENT!
haha.
it was true.
i laughed throughout the whole event!
it was quite a nice working experience.
AND AND AND.
i was beside BIG EASY.
hmmm.
when i see all the fans.
AH.
i finally understood how it was when people see me chasing after my idols.
HAHAH.
but it was cool huh.
BIG EASY BESIDE ME!
yup yup!
the whole show was excellent!
GREAT STORYLINE.
funny phrases and actions.
the chemistry was really good!
a real professional show!
i was thinking hard you know!
MR GOH!
MR WU CHUN!
MR WUZUN!
hahahahha.
will you go to the event?
if you didn't and you haven!
i will recommend you to go!
cos. it's about basketball and it's very nice and entertaining.
well.
something that you would like and it allows you to get a break and a good laugh!
SO.
go for the event if you have a chance!
got to go very soon.
yup.
as much as i want to.
ok.
this post took damn long to be posted here!
haha.
cos i lack the photos that i need in order to blog.
AND WARNING. SUPER LONG.
ok.
firstly.
stayover at sulin's house!
it was a struggle for me jimmy and reuben.
but at last.
we still went.
HAHAH.
this year's birthday blues were bad.
very bad.
hmmm.
then it was at sulin's house.
jimmy brought MAD. and it was seriously a damn funny game.
it SHOWS YOU KARMA!
hahah.
you take my money.
next round i take it back.
LOL.
then we tried to make fries for supper.
cos we were hungry.
but it was a failed attempt.
HAHAHA.
though salt and mayo tried their best to help fries, but it still FAILED.
lol.
then yin ying came along and we all went down to pick her.
and WE WENT JUMPING around cos of the XIAO QIANGS!
aka. COCKROACHES!
HAHAHAH.
then we went back to eat our mac.
then it was very funny.
cos yin ying asked who's birthday was it.
she tried to ask but i couldn't read what was it.
then i was like:
yy:*whispers* whose birthday?*
yw: huh? what day?
yy: birthday?
yw: er. i dunno which word. is it start with b and end with y?
*sulin comes back into the room*
yy:*points to reuben* reuben's birthday?
yw: huh? nonono. he's over alr ma.
yy: huh. then whose's birthday?
yw:eh...
then yin ying left the room with me and jimmy and bi yin.
then jimmy was like laughing and then scolding yin ying.
HAHA.
then yin ying came back and there was like awkward silence.
hahaha.
then later.
sulin's mother suddenly open the door and told us she have something to tell us and asked us to go to the living room.
(i know this sounds strange but then sulin's mummy everytime suddenly open door silently and then we will kena SHOCK. haha)
then..
SURPRISE!
omg.
hahaha.
birthday cake!
lol.
seriously.
though i do anticipate cos before we meet, i was at sulin's hse alr.
then she suddenly ask me go down and wait for jimmy to bring him up.
but jimmy is supposed to know the way better.
haha.
then!
yes!
cake!
HAHAHA.
THANK YOU!
cos i wanted a cake for 3 YEARS LE.
no cake.
damn sad.
CAKE WAS ONE OF MY TOP WANTED PRESENT!
hehehe.
so they made my wish came true!
WOOHOO!
HERE'S SOME PICS WHILE CAKE-ING!
birthday cake!
US WITH CAKE!
then it was another round of fighting in sulin's room.
AGAIN.
it's for sleeping territory and pillows!
HAHAH.
super FUNNY!
then it was photo taking sessions!
here are the photos!
i love this style of taking!
hahah. like fahrenheit's new photo book.
HAHA.
jimmy should be rolling his eye balls if he sees this. hahahaha.
another one!
photo taking with everyone!
with sulin!
yellow MAMA club!
with reuben! SEE my SAD face.
HAHAHA.
with yin ying!
with gigolos! HAHAHAHA.
then it was a short nap before stupid reuben woke me up again!
URGH.
THEN IT WAS A ROUND OF FIGHT!
then bi yin and jimmy left and we went another round of photo taking!
lying down position!
then then then.
went to changi golf club for lunch before sleeping!
then went out at night to meet proggers!
thanks for all the birthday wishes!
this is sholleh and me!
at first we were still wondering.
how should we take a group photo on the mrt!
no one seemed to be volunteering and looked friendly enuff.
but then.
at this time.
there were 2VC members!
HAHAHAHA.
from TP!
super lucky!
then it was group photo!
then then the next day early morning went to school for SIP talk!
then it was outing to suntec.
HAHA.
to REUBEN AND SULIN: i'm SUPER SORRY for FLARING UP. hehe. *chey-som-hamida*
reuben was super disgusting on the way, playing with his retainer which made him look like a giraffe!
then went for lunch at Aston's at suntec.
super nice food!
super cheap!
then we keep taking pictures.
haha.
cos of mr stalker.
HAHAHA.
then yin ying left for church while we went around finding a nice place.
we ended up in coffee club and then it was song making for reuben and another round of... PHOTO TAKING!
AT SUNTEC! with the GIGANTIC needle thingy!
taken by mr stalker.HAHA.
me and my "xiao bai".
ME!
then sent sulin and reuben to the mrt and then went to meet the group!
hehe.
daddy!
HAHAHAHA.
new york new york-ed and took candy floss!
pics pics pics:
birthday GIRLS.
US!
US WITH CANDY FLOSS!
the girls!
old yuewen! HAHAHA.
then it was a damn full dinner then we went pasir ris and met shan shan before chilling out further!
and then glen joined us!
woohoo!
kinda miss jon lim! :'(
then went wai hong's house and watched SAW before we all slept.
HAHAHA.
and i cut my hair the next day!
cos it kept dropping :'(
AND THANKS FOR ALL THE PRESENTS!!! :DD
hmmm.
from may 1 till today.
yup.
very busy.
damn busy
very tired.
damn tired.
it seemed to be heavier than sem 2.2 but it shouldn't be.
HAHAHA.
anyway.
these few weeks had great fun and time in school.
kept laughing!
and i love the story in jimmy's blog.
SUPER FUNNY CAN.
hahahahahahahahaha.
nice!
will attach story at the end!
anyway.
i can foresee life to be more tiring than ever.
i can foresee life to be more stressful than ever.
HMMM.
but i will try to make it through.
but allowed me to be emo kkies.
HAHAHAHA.
anyway! pictures during group walkabout!
HAW PAR VILLA WITH STRANGER R!!
HAHAHAH.
ME ME ME!
TOURIST YW @ URA Gallery. HAHA.
pics during family outing @ Ju Shin Jung!
me, my sister and jennifer!
me and my sister!
and here comes the story by author jimmy!
Let me narrate a story for you about L.O.V.E. between 2 persons.
On 12 May 2009, Ruby Ho and Copper Tan were having lunch at B Park with a group of frenz. Ruby and Copper were a rumoured couple that was spread by their frenz. Copper was wearing a rather sexy shirt or rather a hoodie which could be taken off easily with a rough tear, and their frenz were saying that Ruby can enjoy her during the night.
Ruby: I don't like hoodies, I prefer Cosplay, and Copper, you haven't try Anime clothes, only nurse uniform. We should try it today.
Copper: Don't want la, your D*** so small, I cant even enjoy myself.
Ruby: WTH, yours is so hairy I cant even find me, don't blame me when its your fault I can't even differentiate which hole is which.
Copper: LOL, yours can't even stand straight and its hairless, how can i enjoy?
Ruby: Come on man, not only is yours hairy, your armpit hair is so long that it covers your breasts. You can call yourself Bushy instead of Copper. Oh and you know what, since you're so devoted, you can get a 2nd name and name it Pussy. So you can be Bushy Pussy Tan.
Frenz: Oh, since you 2 are scandals, if Copper marry you, she'll be Bushy Ho-Tan (bushy ho.. get it? LOL) *everyone else laughs wholeheartedly*
And as concluded, Copper lost the fight and frenz have been calling her Bushy Pussy Ho-Tan ever since.
This is a fictional story and has nothing to do with anyone i know or any religious rites.
(although its actually kinda like a true story that I did exaggerated about but most of it is true)
HAHAHAHAHA. super funny!
but you need to know the details to laugh!
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
time for bed.
super not feeling well now.
IT'S CRAMP-ING LIKE SIAO!
AND YES!
i forgot to mention!
i dreamt about yuzhe.
hmmm.
random dream but ya : )
yeah.
slept until 4pm!
it's like new record since dunno when.
cos went prawning until 3am yesterday.
oh mans.
yesterday's luck is negative!
i caught one pregnant one.
but just wasn't willing to catch it and put it into my net of caught prawn.
so it was thrown back to the pond by jennifer before i could say anything.
but i was rather glad too.
cos i wouldn't bear to eat it either.
then it was caught by another man later.
well.
expected isn't it?
hello.
we were at the prawning farm.
how much chance do you think you can survive?
HAHA.
but ya.
just couldn't allow myself to let the prawn, together with its babies, die in my hands.
hmmmm.
then it was really a good sleep!
the weather was superb!
then i dreamt about lots of stuff.
but i can only remember the dream about fahrenheit!
it was a surprise during my birthday.
AND OMG.
they were there.
HAHA.
i believe many people are saying.
yeah yeah. that's why it's a dream.
HAHA.
nahhh.
it's already good enough for me to see them in dreams!
cos it seemed real!
SMILES!!!
can still feel happiness whenever i recall the dream!
made wishes!
haha.
and ning zhi's question of how you wan to take photo with fahrenheit was answered inside!
woohoo!
jenny, shan shan and ning zhi will know how.
HAHA.
emmm.
through the dream, i still realise i like wuzun most!
HAHAHAH.
loves fahrenheit!
oh ya!
farewell for jon!
here's some pics!
here's the drama pros! jon and me!
here's jon with the girls!
the girls!
AND YES.
the blues are coming.
oh mans.
glad to have you guys and thanks for appearing,
even though it's just in my dreams :)
before i knew it, i was back to where i last saw you almost a year ago.
it's almost a year.
how are you doing?
i think it should be fine for you, isn't it?
i felt very scared suddenly.
yes.
at that last moment.
no matter how sad, traumatized and afraid.
it's just no longer the same anymore, isn't it?
that's just how scary humans are right?
we promised that we will never forget, but, how can it be?
there are sure moments,
that we will forget those times spent together,
those moments.
if we put them nicely, it will be called moving on with life.
if we put them nicely, it will be called healing the scars.
but truthfully, is it true?
or it's just that,we've forgotten?
but should we, forget?
but should we, let go?
i believe.
there are still many like me.
that will still think of you when times are tough.
that will still think of you when seeing things related to you.
that will still think of you when night is here and when being alone.
that will still think of you when the rain is here and pouring hard.
not just only on the window panels,
but also on our hearts.
hmmmm. jon's joining the pool of NS men tomorrow!
oh mans.
just realised glendon has been there for almost 2 weeks?
oh mans oh mans.
kinda miss glendon and daddy!
of course, started to miss jonie also!
had dinner together on wednesday!
at cafe cartel and talked at mac before i head home with jenny and shan shan!
shall upload the pics when i have them.
ahhhh.
sad sad sad.
it's getting tougher and tougher gathering people.
HAIIS.
sad sad sad.
well.
AND.
oh mans!
i'm super addicted to this song now!
SORRY SORRY!
YAHOO!
sunday was sunday cya outing!
HAHAHA.
sounds so sunday-ish.
hmmm.
met ning zhi and went iluma.
HMMM.
concept mall?
nice!
loved the arcade.
HAHA.
missed the banana!
sad ah!
then met kamama at fish and co and met sulin there also.
then we had a super long meal chit chatting until reuben and yin ying came!
AND WE EXTENDED OUR DINNER TIME.
then it was a round of crazy photo taking before watching knowing!
forgot what pose we were supposed to have!
the sunday girls!
haha.
then it was KNOWING!
(knowing trailer)
yes!
finally.
damn nice effects i would say.
especially these few:
1. plane crash
2. subway crash
3. end of the world
well.
because there are people who have warned me about the ending.
i have went there well prepared.
and the effects were damn good.
only if it could be 3D.
that would be even better!
then i think the ending wasn't as bad as i think.
i would say, disastrously hopeful.
well.
it was the end of the world.
kinda scary isn't it?
but that exactly how i think the world might end up.
global warming, natural disasters increasing, human disasters increasing, resources depleting, etc etc
but still.
kinda scary isn't it?
but well.
at least it was a fast death?
i guess.
look at those flames.
tsk tsk tsk.
well.
regarding the ending of the movie.
i think it wasn't as lame and dumb like mentioned.
er.
maybe it was just me.
to me.
it sort of brings out a hope.
a hope that even if it's the end of the world, there may still be life somewhere.
and we can start ALL OVER AGAIN.
emmmm.
regarding the alien part.
i dont think it's dumb to because i think i remember that i have watched something that has mentioned that there may really be aliens existing.
AND AND.
they may have existed before us and even us, humans are created by them!
ANDDD.
we are just their experiments to create some perfect world thingy.
SOOOO.
i dont feel that it is stupid when i saw the ending.
instead i was thankful.
and if it's the end of the world.
i would hope that there would at least be 2 kids that are saved to continue and restart the world!
then then then!
it was second round of talking at bugis mac before cabbing home.
laughed and laughed when talking about dream partner.
SUNDAY CYA STAR!
then it was home sweet home before wasting half of my monday.
then went sub comm gathering/dinner @ mushroom.
then then then.
it was school today!
haha.
only went for one lec and went k box with the ock & friends!
haha.my throat seriously hurts now.
PAIN pain pain.
anyway.
as i mention...
dream guy?
HAHAH.
i thought of dong!
er.
i dont know why!
but recently.
i feel very attached to him.
FOR NO REASONS!
that's the scariest part.
oh mans oh mans.
then i keep feeling that it would be the most fantabulous thing if he is the husband.
just felt that he will give his 101% love to the max and fullest!
then it's very safe and comfortable with him.
though he does silly acts, but he can make you laugh.
when he is serious, he can make you listen to him.
when you are sad, he can play guitar for you.
HMMMM.
nice isn't it!
HAHA.
i should stop this NOW!
oh mans.
how can change!
HAHAH.
stop stop stop!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i cant stop!
HAHA.
ok.
NVM.
lalala.
anyway.
THIS WEEK IS SUPER BROKE.
seriously broke.
ZERO MONEY LEFT ALR LAAAAA.
haiis.
and tomoro will be dinner!
AND AS I MENTION, i'm pissed all over again.
but you know what.
i'm not going to let this continue.
if that's what is going to happen, then we dont need a group.
then we dont need a group identity.
WHY AND WHAT FOR DO WE NEED THAT TO PISSED PEOPLE OFF!
urgh.
I SHALL KEEP MY TEMPER DOWN.
i shall test my patience further.
i shall not make myself unhappy!
HMMM!
you wait!
oh mans. it has been 14 days since i last blogged.
but it's like one of the most happening 14 days i ever had in my life!
AND AND AND.
WARNING!
this post is going to be LONG.
VERY VERY VERY LONG.
if you have no issues,
lets... FLASHBACK!
when Fahrenheit was here for autograph...
hmmm. i shall start with the meet up with ning zhi!
eh.
it was a long yet short journey to IMM.
once again.
which was last did like 2 years ago!
OH MANS.
but now, it's OVERNIGHT!
er.
was so sian-ed when we had to find the queue and found out that #@$@#% AMOUNT of people were in front already.
oh mans.
then had our wait near the bushes/trees/drains.
OH MANS.
it was DECLARED WAR WITH THE ANTS!
disgustingly disgusting!
i hate the ants when ningzhi went around killing!
HAHA.
but the stars were beautiful though.
and i keep having the need to go toilet!
HAHA.
had the night spent sadly and busily.
cos even after we moved, which was already 5 am in the morning.
we were haunted by the mosquitoes.
haha.
well.
it was a better choice for me!
then time start to pass, pass, pass.
as ning zhi and i hear fahrenheit's songs!
er.
then went up to the open plaza!
i swear!
i thought i will surely die there if i dont go anywhere else.
had the chance to ran out and attempted to find a new pair of pants.
FIY. my pants spoiled.
SIAN RITE!
=.=
then finally.
time passes.
fahrenheit's really coming!
oh mans.
then they came!
SO DID THE RAIN!
WELL.
i know i really liked "yu shi yan lei"
BUT THEN.
i dont need it to POUR ON ME!
half of me was wet by the time they are ready to sign.
OH MANS.
well.
at least it was worthwhile!
i was very nervous cos i really didnt see them for one million years!
then.
firstly.
YIRU.
oh mans.
he looked so much better la!
still.
i was very nervous when i saw him and i told him that he was getting better looks!
haha.
well.
he did k!
then it was...ya lun!
er.
before autograph i still had news that he wasn't on a good mood but on the auto, he was great!
haha.
and i finally decided not to suan about the 30.
hahah.
BEFORE SHAN SHAN KILLS ME.
lols.
ya lun as usual.
was great with his hair.
except that his hair colour WAS SUPER GOOD this time!
then.
asked him bout his leg injuries but ya!
oh ya!
something to compliment!
YA LUN'S LIVE SINGING IMPROVED LIKE TREMENDOUSLY TREMENDOUS!
seriously.
i was shocked.
positively shocked!
well. you cant deny that ya lun has a pretty good voice right from the start.
HAHA.
then it was da dong!
well!
his necklace was super attractive!
HAHA.
and his hair toned down a lot and hence, it was a lot better!
well.
other than together, i dont know what to say to him!
but it was damn nice to have him shaking hands.
i mean BOTH HANDS.
hahahaha.
AND.. wu zun was like the next so i was SUPER NERVOUS!
then it was wuzun!
oh my!
was super worried about his injuries.
no matter legs or hands.
aiyo aiyo!
but still.
his eyes! oh mans oh mans!!
seriously.
i remembered the first time i saw wuzun in real.
i was.
i was totally shocked by his eyes.
i finally understood why media said he always electrify the other celebrities!
haha.
but i could feel his tiredness.
as well as the other 3 members!
heard that they didn't sleep at all!
so did i!
but they did it for work and for fans!
so, jia you ok!
but still, wu zun was very gentle with his words and oh mans.
i was totally in my lala world!
haha.
then it was CHIONG to dragonfly.
then it was in the RAIN RAIN RAIN again.
but still!
in the wait for fahrenheit!
i remembered all the songs sia.
even though i really didn't know the songs well at first.
HAHA.
anyway.
at the jian mian hui.
OH MANS.
i saw the other side of fahrenheit.
i felt that they were totally crazy and open!
there were a lot of shiok moments.
haha.
when da dong did push ups.
when yiru beat box-ed.
when ya lun was carried by wuzun cos of "ji mo bao zou"
haah.
damn lame.
and when wuzun talked and laughed like mad.
i hope they were really enjoying what they were doing.
and i was super excited to see this side of them.
then ya lun cried later.
while da dong and wuzun's eyes turned red.
i am not too sure.
but i felt that wuzun thought of his mum when ya lun mentioned about his grandpa.
and about CHERISH.
hmmm.
well.
it's our life.
perhaps.
that's a learning point.
isn't it?
then it was home and BOMP!
on the bed and the next day.. WAS CAMPUS SUPERSTAR WITH FAHRENHEIT!
saw sing yee and sandra there.
and i was totally mad i think.
haha.
when fahrenheit came out.
i thought my lungs are flying out like sooooon!
haha.
HAPPY TO SEE THEM AGAIN!
but everytime ya lun and wuzun jumped.
my heart skipped a few beats.
please dont okay!
if it hurts so much and if THEY HAVE NOT RECOVERED!
then it was the sending of FAHRENHEIT!
oh mans.
wuzun was on wheelchair!
see la!
already say if pain dont jump!
hmmm.
but it was a slow walk towards the gate too.
happ-fied.
haha.
then bye fahrenheit!
oh mans.
it will be #@#@#$&%$& later when i next see them!
take care in the meanwhile!
then. IT WAS FOW DAY ZERO.
SUPER TIRED.
cos slept SUPER LITTLE.
was damn nervous.
yea.
not my first fo.
but first fo as a head.
then it was the meeting with proggers to do stuff.
then it was main comm dinner.
totally funny.
had fun with ban mian, hair serum, 2 dollars, pork and wanton mee.
HAHAHAHA.
then it was the start of FO!
slept SUPER LITTLE.
like 1.5 hours!
HAHAH.
er.
then start to see freshies!
oh mans.
cant believe.
2 years ago.
i was in the freshies group.
and now.
i was standing there.
organizing stuff for them!
but there was lesser freshies than expected!
then workshop officially started.
problems during flag.
then it was games.
timing was a problem.
then games were a PROBLEM.
oh mans.
i finally understood how it should be felt.
hearing all the bad comments.
i think it's exactly like that.
when i was a progger.
i seriously hated it when there were like forever bad comments.
but i had to do this all over again.
but this time.
its from me.
i know how much it hurts.
but still.
i forced out the 9 out of 10.
cant be played.
i forced out the words.
meaningless.
useless.
dead.
monotone.
boring.
sian.
can do better.
then the whole atmosphere just zoomed down to the lowest point.
then it was a cold ending.
which was totally hurtful.
seriously.
then it was day 2.
had the hand sign, school song and mass dance.
then it was games.
better.
seriously.
on the spot i heard good feedback.
it was shiok.
for my proggers.
totally shiok!
finally.
good news can be given at the end of the day!
then it was given at the end!
BUT.
on the other side.
game timing was screwed.
super duper DAMN SCREWED.
i felt super sorry for my proggers who had to handle 4 sub empires at one go.
but i think u guys ROCKS.
seriously.
4 sub empires!
then it was day 3's carnival games.
then hunt-gry.
spent the whole huntgry at tembusu.
haha.
edwin was seriously funny when he stopped in the middle just to walkie.
oh yes.
xiu hui came.
when she asked about the station games, i just refused to answer.
for the water then started rolling in my eyes had the answer.
then there was a cancel for final clash cos of rain.
HAHA.
it was just damn funny then.
had dancing king and everything ended off!
saw tom and elene.
oh mans.
just thought of last year!
er.
then later.
there was just a round of bad debriefing.
haiis.
same issue.
punctuality.
then later it was a talk with amos, izak, tom and xiuhui.
just cant helped it.
and then my tap key came in with my tap started flowing like total madness.
but i was very thankful.
for them.
cos they let me hear the truthful words that i would really need at that time.
i think it was damn funny when i saw gerald and wai and i started breaking down all over again after i stopped.
it was just.
uncontrollable.
felt that i had so much to tell them.
but ya.
started crying first.
then it was home.
i thought!
but i ended up at cpf.
which was quite glad.
cos had fun there!
lol.
edwin kena as a joke by john and chris.
that 2 super funny people!
haha.
then edwin just went mad!
HAHA.
home-ed.
super sorry to my mum who waited outside and through the night for me.
oh mans.
then it was sleep all the way through until the next day!
THEN, FOC DAY ZERO.
met up in school!
start doing the canton cheers!
haha.
super damn lame!
then had our nails done!
and had a super long talk after dinner.
teared again.
oh mans.
but seriously.
everyone stayed up till super early.
but FOC DAY 1 WAS A BLAST!
haha.
had new presents!
mic from eric, dog bone from yiwen, curly and ben!
but really.
foc day 1.
super good.
everyone improved like siao and the mood was just.
TOTALLY CRAZY.
hahah.
happily crazy!
then before i knew it.
day 2 came!
it was wet weather and hence, things moved more smoothly as compared to going out!
saw shas!
then dancing queen was super shiok!
and then came performance night!
GO SUB COMMS!
haha.
then it was main comm cheer!
oh mans.
i used to think being able to be in main comm doing main comm cheer is such a fantabulous thingy!
but now.
i am standing there!
oh my!
then it was jam and hop happily until i shall not mention.
TSK.
then i just felt fatigue haunting me once meeting started.
i think my face totally black out during the main comm debriefing.
er.
ya.
i didn't want to but i'm sorry.
i was just pissed off.
day 3 just zoomed here.
it was a total madness after the revealing of scoring in the morning.
EVERYONE JUST CHIONG!
and i saw edmund!
haha.
it's a good choice to enter FO you know?
hahahaa.
then it was running around until huntgry!
it was fun to play with water with the main comm at sdc level 1!
damn shiok!
then it was scarily scary when me and ann hin went out for hunt-gry!
the empires all see us like food!
chiong like siao when all main comms were out!
then it was the ending video cos final clash was cancelled.
oh mans.
it was a round of tearing when year 3s sang.
oh mans.
they were the ones who used to be there when i was a freshie.
they were the ones who helped to make the camp a possible one!
then as the time pass by.
finally.
it was the moment.
time to break camp while taking the pic.
i saw sandra AND HENCE, it was the start of my crying!
before that i was still talking to ann hin perfectly fine!
see la sexy!
haha.
my tears making machine!
then as she said she was damn proud of me.
my tears and my emotions were a blast!
i was like saying and crying together!
then i said i can finally go out.
they cannot scold me anymore.
HAHA.
damn lame shit.
but ya.
felt good that sandra was there!
and she ended up crying also!
haha.
then xiuhui came to me and said i did a good job.
WA.
SERIOUSLY.
my tears ran out of my eyes sia.
aiya.
i still felt that i could have done better.
i'm sorry.
cos i knew it wasn't my 100%.
i knew i could be better.
i knew i shouldn't just compromise and i should have spoke up.
haiis.
i'm just.
sorry.
for not giving 100 and 1 percent FULL.
then it was a long round of crying.
with proggers hugging.
with people telling me dont cry.
with me making farhan cos i said next year it will be our turn to cry.
haha.
then it was debriefing at the triangular garden with super lots of lightning at the back.
teared again.
was DAMN PROUD OF EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM there!
they improved a lot!
they managed to see a side they never seen before!
but i was very sorry.
for i felt that i didn't teach them what i could have.
but i felt happy cos the comm was damn good and they have came to that final day co of each other!
then it was cpf.
when talking to elene.
seriously.
cried again!
haiyo.
but ya.
then it was super siao after which.
HAHAHA.
yan and i had our very own drama during the taxi ride.
"get down get down!!"
FOC!
then i slept throughout the next day, which is thursday.
then it was friday, good friday @ school meeting and then at night, it was meeting with 6713.
i'm sorry for flaring up cos of the wait but ya.
HEHE.
then it was tcc-ed and it was the discussion of 2 years later overseas project.
it is damn far but i am damn excited!!!
hahaha.
then it was a round of madness when taking jon's car!
haha.
seriously.
haha.
then i felt that i have really grown up.
with my same age friend beside me driving.
thinking where to go at 1am!!!
it's a totally madness.
it's like a dream la.
then it was home at near 4am and then 2 hours of sleep before sentosa-ing.
met ann hin and co.
then we began our journey in!
IT WAS SUPER SUPER HOT CAN.
it was fun with the main comm doing the cheers of the older days and doing cheers with names.
mine was:
我的名是yuewen。
我不象kaiwen。
我不喜欢问人。
我只问神!
damn funny!
had a good round of final clash.
which brought me back to 2 years ago.
when i was just a freshie.
i was there also.
playing final clash for ophix.
OH MANS OH MANS.
TIME FLIES.
then ho ho ho.
it began the CRYING.
i mean.
RAINING.
chiong-ed to the toilet and get myself bathed before worrying how to cross baack to the sheltered area!
thanks for sheltering me!
i know you are a GL!
HAHA.
then it was cheering competition with SP.
wa.
last year also like that.
this year also.
it was a shiok shiok.
HAHA.
the mini enclosed area with the cheers battles going on.
it's really.
impressive!
then it was dinner at subway.
everything was just damn funny!!!
HAHA.
then by the time we went back to the open amphi, it was cheers battle ALL OVER AGAIN!
haha.
but it's just nice!
tp's cheers just rocked.
cos we are just different.
HAHAHAHAHA.
DAMN PROUD OF THE FACT!
then me and sholleh and eric.
went mad.
HAHAH.
just loved the proggers this year!
it was a nice photo taking session with MANY MANY PEOPLE before heading home!
HAHA.
sweet!
sandra and me will feel the xing fu-ness!
RIGHT SANDRA!
HAHAHAHAHAH.
i think i still deserve the drink man!!!
then it was sunday!
cant remember what i did exactly but i remember campus superstar!
damn proud of JAROD!
cos he's from NAS.
haha.
damn proud of NAS.
then it was monday!
meet up with chin meng, vanessa, anna, jie xin, tristan and ming yi!
had dinner together as a farewell dinner for chin meng before he enters NS!
chin meng is a damn worth to praise gentleman!
HAHA.
forever filling up the water!
hmmm.
i dont know eh.
guys around me like all quite gentlemen.
HAHA.
then it was arcade-ing.
but was sabo-ed to play para.
then we headed for fitness corner beside the tampines mrt track for brownies made by vanessa and for a round of cam-whoring!
hey chin meng!
jia yous k!
haha.
serve the nation!
see ya when u book out!
AND IT WILL BE NEAR MY BIRTHDAY HOR.
haha.
then it was today!
hmmm.
slacked throughout the day.
and knew a new bad news.
the singer for 葉子, 阿桑 passed away on the 6th of april cos of breast cancer.
damn sad rite.
haiis.
葉子 is damn 经典 can.
haiis.
will end off with her song, 葉子 today.
hmmm.
FO IS OVER.
14 days before today.
i'm preparing for FO.
it was the FOW DAY ZERO.
but it has all ended.
8 months of working.
midnight oil.
arguments.
laughing.
crying.
has all ended as FO ended.
i just felt that.
this 8 months.
JUST ZOOOOOM.
this 8 months.
were the most ups and downs 8 months i ever had in my life.
the amount of stress to withstand for these 8 months.
is even far far far more than what i need to withstand for the o levels.
some people may not understand how much it felt.
though they have heard the stories.
though they might have experienced camp before.
but seriously.
you will probably will never understand until you experienced it.
i dont know.
one thing i'm very thankful is that many were there when i was really down.
though some really down moments.
i was by myself.
by these 8 months.
i have really grown tremendously.
hence.
i'm thankful for the stress too.
many htm people said.
this semester 2.2 is a total madness.
even lecturers said it's a damn heavy semester.
yet i was there doing prog at the same time while everyone were already dying for school work.
but still.
i'm thankful.
cos with all these madness and packed schedule.
i think i went mad.
and chiong-ed for my school work side.
it was the best results ever in poly life.
though it didn't push my results up to what i have expected.
but i still think it's a miracle to push up results.
during this semester.
especially this semester.
cos there's like SOOOO many coursework based subjects.
and i have to travel to sentosa for school
which also means i have to travel back for meetings.
=.=
this 8 months.
ah.
fulfilling.
worked with my co heads, brandon and ann hin.
i have picked up a lot.
i have experienced a lot.
i still remember the first time when we sat in the main comm room for interview.
i still remember the first time when we sat in subway @ plaza sing with xiuhui, elene and yvonne.
i still remember the first time when our manual was taken away.
i still remember the first time when we called to inform our sub comms and i made a stupid number joke.
i still remember the first time when we stayed in school until it was nearly 5am and had breakfast opposite my house.
i still remember the first time when we had our first meeting in TPSU lounge, playing the ice breaking game.
I still remember the first time when we had games submitted and we were rushing to read them.
i still remember the first time when we went to ann hin house for prog stuff and we burnt our midnight oil with me acting as the ghost.
i still remember the first time when we had to be "shoot" with all the questions and tasks during meetings.
i still remember the first time when we had a silent meeting cos there was some scoldings.
i still remember the first time when we had to go around the schools to see the rooms for nightwalk.
i still remember the first time when i had to leave you guys during otcw and we cycled out together.
i still remember the first time proggers went out after otcw, finally.
i still remember the first time i saw proggers drinking alcohol with sholleh going drunk.
i still remember the first time we had a prog chalet with our proggers and i had to piggyback sholleh and i FELL.
i still remember the first time brandon stand on stand for emcee while me and ann hin stood at the back.
i still remember the first time when timing was a total mess and we had to went around.
i still remember the first time we all seriously sat down and gave negative feedbacks.
i still remember the first time when we were so busy cos of timing issues.
i still remember the first times, of all the first times i ever had with those 2 heads.
there were many tough moments.
but as i look back now, i'm thankful for those moments.
cos of them.
i have grown.
and i do realise.
life isn't and wouldn't be a smooth journey huh.
oooh~~~
kiss me kiss me tonight!
ALSO!
worked with people that i have never thought of working before.
learnt a lot from every single of them!
i'm very thankful that my proggers are there.
im thankful that they have enjoyed or learnt something from FO.
truthfully.
as a head.
it's not as easy to obtain motivation as when u are just a sub comm.
but the proggers were my motivation.
so yaa.
i've succeed in moving!
i'm really glad that ann hin was there!
SERIOUSLY SERIOUS.
hahas.
she is practically my 诉苦机!!
hmmm.
AHHHHHH.
camps over!
there's people warning me: DONT JOIN PROGRAMME ANYMORE HORR.
there's also people propaganda-ing me: JOIN PROGRAMME AGAIN NEXT YEAR!
HAHA.
hmmm.
well.
i'm stuck!
i believe there will be a lot of camp people that will agree with me!
esp. the heads like, prog heads. hehe.
when you have to withstand all the unwanted pressure.
when you have to burn all your midnight oils on comm stuff.
when you already have practically no time for yourself but you are still out there having meetings.
when you already feel like sleeping but you cant cos you still got tonns of work to do.
when you want to go out with your clique but you just cant cos there's meetings.
when you want to sleep but you cant cos you keep thinking about your camp stuff.
when you are so busy with your camp stuff until you get so tired and lazy to do your school stuff.
when you are so packed until it forces you to go crazy when you are doing your projects.
when you are doing your projects and yet your mind is with your camp stuff and comm.
when you are studying for exams you are thinking that camp is coming close.
when you thought everything will be over soon but it isn't going to be over just like that.
when you think of so many when.
when you say you will NEVER JOIN the camp EVER AGAIN after all the WHENS.
when you say IF you JOIN AGAIN you will JUMP OFF THE BUILDING or go siao.
I THINK THERE'S STILL CHANCE OF JOINING BACK.
yupp.
i believe many agrees with me.
it is hard to make those who have never been through to understand.
but for those who have went through.
i think they will probably understand what i'm saying.
NO MATTER how much SHIT we kena,
NO MATTER how tiring it gets,
NO MATTER how much we complain,
when the next camp comes,
WE WILL STILL DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN.
that's the power.
or power 'x' does to us.
HAHA.
let's see what happens next year.
i'm going to get scolded and propaganda-ed all over AGAIN!
OH MANS!
I HAVE SOOOOO MUCH TO SAY!
BUT NOW NO TIME!
cos DAY ZERO is in 8 hours time!!
gotta sleep really soon!
WILL BLOG about FAHRENHEIT @ SINGAPORE after FO!
haha.
that's 8th of april!
think it will ZOOOOOM PASS VERY FAST!
wish me luck mans!
i know you peepers!
sms me if you are peeping at my blog!
OEI.
dont act act hor.
HAHA.
anyway.
i love fahrenheit!
